ever fallen in love

games carnival today!!!!! was fun. =) supporting and shouting is so fun! although i daresay it irritates more than it encourages the players. oh well, what to do? fan club points.
today today today. i wonder how many guys are going to miss out on father's day in the future. football seems like such a dangerous sport. especially to the... continuity of mankind =p
i'm so going to lose my voice.

i cant wait for the next expedition! am itching to go so badly. last camp with darren.. haha. pangkor was so fun. it probably didnt feel so fun during the camp... but after, when i look back... hehe.

microsoft word has stopped working! this is a tragedy. how am i to do my hw?! :(

okay. what can i say?
nothing.
OMG
mr wong today
so tak bersemangat!! we ask him to cheer with us and all he did was give us thumbs up. pft!!

:)

i like big butts and i cannot lie

haha.
does it not feel as thought the holidays just whizzed past? on the concorde. hahah. nvm. i will not be lame.

got my stitches removed yesterday. the lady doctor was astounded that i had been showering regularly since the operation. i was petrified thinking i smelt like i hadnt. and after some thought, really irked by the thought of NOT showering. eeeewwww. i must rmb to thank uncle foon for those waterproof plasters that enabled me to bathe.

today i was talking to my parents about a-levels. i want to get into a good college. i dont wanna work for it. i dont want to leave cempaka. i dont want to grow old. i dont want to have to take care of myself. i'm scared. and i was talking to kin wai the other day; and whining about the eng presentation. hm, he says he has to do loads too. architecture-the presentations are 10 mins long. i didnt realise you had to talk so much in uni. i really really am terrified. what if i dont get straight As for spm? or for A-lvls? or dont get a first class from uni?! ARRRRRRGH. and spm..... i am so so so worried. (coughteacherswhycouldntwegetczakiahmrsheatmrpanchaNOTcikeshamssandramrwongmshngcough) how am i going to pass the science subjects??? what more, get an A. especially physics. and bio. i mean, honestly! we havent learnt much of physics. we get hw on a topic we are completely clueless on, and this year is the foundation year. important important important. HOW? physics is my main worry of the 3 science subjects i guess.... =s

school tmrw. is that thought not wrong is so many many ways??

i cant wait to get out of the house. its a long story, but i shall lay it on, thick and heavy, on the eyes of the few (if any) people who read this blog. well lets just say once upon a time beautiful large carps in a nice aquarium were get infected by fungus and dying. and apparently the cleanest way to dispose of a dead animal is by burying it. link the two statements. note the lack of skill of the person burying it (he buried it too near the surface. messy issue.). add two insanely odd dogs with fantastic sense of smell, a knack of trouble, strong curiousity, and most importantly, a penchant for digging. deep. and dragging things about a garden.
do the math. cant? well lets just say death has an over-sweet, sticky, rotting, and completely sickening smell. (and it makes me sick to the gut. ever smelt the gunung datuk toilet 100 m away from it? imagine the smell IN the toilet. and amplify that by maybe 10000 times. there you go. the horrors of the scent of death. no actually, its much worse.)
i am so wearing perfume to school tmrw.
muffy and nelson better not jump on me, or lick me.
if they do, i'll scream. i really will.
i cant stand the smell. it can drive a person CRAZY. why cant it go away?! it's lingering. no matter how many times mom has washed around the place, or how deep she has reburied them. is it in my head or is it really there?!
i hope this doesnt disturb the fishes' restful peace.

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for every action, there is a reaction right? errrrr..........catatan bergu!
anyway, i'm back! from taiping. safe and sound, save two teenie stitches and two hundred mosquito bites. hahahha. i was lucky - i got a double dose of local anaesthetic. haha i bet if i didnt i'd have screamed. it was 1 cm deep apparently. gross. mom was holding the torch and from what i heard, she wanted to throw up. am very glad she didnt. can you imagine having vomit enter your body? i mean, mixing with your blood. eeeew.hahahah and another really weird thing is i couldve sworn i heard "snip. snip. snip" as i was lying down and my uncle was just starting to cut..... maybe it was my imagination. yikes. dont wanna go there. i'm Certain i heard a snip at least, when he was done stitching. eeee. itchy!! but if i scratch, it'll hurt! how?!
we went to taiping zoo! its not bad. at all! its quite nice, just that i Have to admit the spore night safari was loads more impressive =p. still. i'm impressed! (esp since its admission fee is lower than spore's, i bet.) did you know a bearded pig is really, well, beardy?! amazingly hairy, that thing. omg. i wonder how it eats, surely food get stuck there?! hahah. and theres only one giraffe, i bet it feels lonely.
ch3em hw? still not done. don't give me that look! i read twilight. AGAIN. hahah. its so nice, the book. the guy is so sweet! it IS possible to understand the girl feeling willing to give up her life to be with him. (of course, some find the very idea preposterous, but, hey, i think i would do the same if i really really felt so truly and strongly about a guy..) i read velocity! omg. i totally do not like that book. it creeps me out, imagining cut off hands wrapped in foil and stuffed in a refrigerator for me to find. very, very, very sick. and fish-hooks? never going near them. cannot help but imagine them implanted in my forehead, and pulling them out myself. just twisted! (and i DID like fishing... a bit. =C )
oh god theres so much hw... i just wanna laze this hols la. but that's not going to be possible i think. so i shall just have to... laze during school?! thank goodness for games carnival/sports day. much needed break.
i cant access the school website! how am i to get my hw?! uggggh. i paid ten bucks for it man! conningnya. haha, oh well
when will i see you again? (dont you just LOVE that song?)

twilight

yes i AM obsessed with that book. i must not, repeat, NOT start on another book until i have finished my hw. i must not. i will not. but then again... sighs.
about 150 mins ago i turned on the comp, intending to finish my chem essay. lets just say that i got distracted. a minor detour, really.
seems like this holiday will be quite a busy one...

today we visited this cool school for like, spastics. first they performed, then we performed (you've got a friend in me...), then we socialized with them a bit. it was really nice that they sort of let us talk to them ourselves and all... the students (i dont think its wrong to say that since its a school...) there were really, REALLY sweet and cute!
i got to push a wheelchair! its not easy when the guy you're pushing seems heavier than you tho =s. but it was so incredibly fun.... nic and i were sort of pushing one guy between the two of us... (nic cant talk to them while pushing, it seems. and i cant seem to push the wheelchair without having it stop or swerve randomly.) well we switched a couple of times, pushing different people, but mostly i (fine. we. wtv. gr. ahhah!) pushed this adorable kid called rahim around... he was so sweet.. haha when we had to go, he still wanted to be pushed around.. i would have i think! but mr wong was there chasing us all away... the others had moved ahead =P
anyway there were lots of other kids there too! they were all quite friendly and waved at us. except a few, who seemed quite scared of us. (not that i can blame them, i hardly think i'd be impressed by a bunch of students coming to baby me.)(and i dont think i should refer to them as 'kids' either, since quite a number of them are only 1-2 years younger than me.) (and why on earth did we push all of their wheelchairs?? some seemed perfectly capable! i could just feeeeeeel rahim's disbelief and irritation at my lack of ability to handle his chair every time i swerved suddenly. in fact he DID try to use his hands to move ahead himself.... *innocent whistle* )
this trip was really good, as in i felt i actually got to talk a bit to them. compared to all the hospital visits we joined before, where we stood around awkwardly as both teachers and the hospital staff tried to get us to talk... of course we DID try, just i dont think they were much interested. today's trip actually had an impact of me. =0 amazed?

and on the way back, we were singing (again!) our very own rendition of "i want it that way" and "i love you baby". oh the ayamas song too.=P. and we sang happy birthday... (first to weng, then to someone else-i forgot, then to mr wong [to which, weng shouted : "EH WRONG LA! to MR WONG'S GIRLFRIEND!!! MRS WONG!!"] it's ms hng's bday today. ;) we sang happy birthday to her too, in the school canteen, when we got back.

it was really fun. the only not-so-fun thing about today's trip was that it made me think. it made me realise how completely grateful i am to be, well, you know, i guess blessed. i think lots of babies get jaundice, as i know i did, and su lin did, and tara too. i feel so so lucky, since i did develop jaundice as a baby, and i DID have a habit of toppling down stairs and sofas when i was being babysat by ming. i feel to glad that all that happened to me, and i'm still here. in cempaka, living my life. i know it sounds terrible, coming out like this, but that IS how i feel.
i really admire the lady who took us around, puan marie ( i think?! or was it mrs wong... lol). i mean, she dedicated pretty much her entire life to helping out spastic children, and the school. it's amazing.

on the sidenote, HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! =)
taiping tmrw. god. i really dont like needles. or blood. (remember bio? just proves my point - blood and me.... NOT GOOD.) and if there's something that definitely irks me out, it's pain. i hope it doesnt hurt. =( it shouldnt. in fact, stitches shouldnt be neccessary, right? just a tiny thing.

it's my party and i'll cry if i want to! ignore me. if you want. really. i'll try not to mind. butilvoeutonsnotsmartofmeeh?

and then the sirens came

ambulance whizzing past, with nelson howling so upsettedly after it. its saddening, isnt it? makes you think someone might be in the ambulance, hovering between life and death, giving in to death maybe. sometimes all it takes is something like that to jolt a self-pitier back to life isnt it? to realise that there is so MUCH more in the world, that the world does NOT revolve around you.

you've got a friend in me

firstly, my apologies to everyone whom i was acting bitchy to today! hahah (sorreee zulle...=( but erm, thanks for warning me? =D) fine. almost everyone. (including nic! i'm sooo sorry nic! haha. i am. really.)

can you imagine about 11 f4sc1s in the yjc room, crowding around a computer, swaying from side to side singing "you;ve got a friend in me"? cos thats what we DID today. omg. hilarious. it's one of those unforgettable moments, i daresay. it was so funny. there were people outside sitting for their history exams, and when i opened the door, the singing could be heard! they all turned around with big grins on their faces.

i guess i'm still moody. i really dont want to be, but i can't seem to help myself..

i had discovered the reason of my blog being bizarre and not working! it's my comp. somehow it cant access the right date of webpages and all (like news, according to my dad.) so irritating!

we sat for the accounts exam today. school's a bit faster than our tuition (fine. lots.) i didnt know so many questions!

i've got a mysterious blueblack on my leg too..... it came the day right after swimming gala.... mx. we;re marked! =O

i got my cpe results back =( and physics. and all i can say is shit. shitshitshitshitshit.

i need zulle's blazer. i dont like screaming into pillows. they're too fluffy they make you feel like you're suffocating.

fd3 has not left me unscathed. i;m NEVER going into a roller coaster. and you'd never catch me in a tanning bed. NEVER. NEVER. NEVER. and i have another reason to never ever go gymming and i will not stop by drive-bys. i will never work in a warehouse, and i will never go to a tricentennial celebration. especially not if it includes mad horses, sharp things, and fireworks. i am never going into a london/american train without a lucky charm. i will never go ANYWHERE without a lucky charm.

i'm doing it again, aren;t i.
showers are good. i'm going to go enjoy one now. maybe it'll be the highlight of my day.