weird!

my updater is weird-notice?
today was a bad day. so many terrible terrible marks! i felt i could've done so much better. IF I HAD NOT BEEN CARELESS. IF I HAD NOT FREAKED OUT. IF I HAD ENOUGH TIME TO CHECK. IF I READ QUESTIONS PROPERLY. uggh. =(
well after the terrible school, the ladder i had fallen off fell on me. (sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga, geddit? XD)
well i called my music school, just in case i had piano. this lady (who had a voice of a donald-mickey character) answered.
me : hi! this is kah ann, just checking, do i have piano class today?
lady : hi! sorry, what was your name again?
me : fong... kah... ann.... my teacher is mr lean..
lady : oh, your lesson is from 8 - 9.. is that a rough time?
me : no, its fine. so my lesson is today?
lady : 8-9
me : tonight?
lady : 8-9
me : *thoroughly irritated by her voice now* okay! thanks! bye!

so i turned up at musicmakers at 7.55. the lady at the desk stares at me. "kah ann right? you DONT have class! mr lean just went back!" OMG I SWEAR I COULD'VE EATEN THE LADY ON THE PHONE. her and her donald-mickey voice.

then, just to really sign it off, as though to confirm that today was / is a bad day, i had to argue with my mom... =( she had been nagging me about my hair, and that made me really conscious about it. (previously i actually forgot i even had the irritating strand.... lol.) but today i was super conscious about it and it drove me INSANE. as such, i went to buy hair pins... (i HATE hair pins thought. =( ) and in the car, on the way back, she kept going on and on about my hair, telling me how irritating it was, how people would look down on me and all, all the bad impressions. and she said i probably failed my interview because of my hair. that really did hurt, because i never told her that i actually wanted to be a prefect until maybe this morning? i wonder what possessed me to. i didnt intend to, it just came out. ugh. =(
you know what another funny thing is? she didnt even want me to be a prefect. i feel so, i dunno. it's sort of like all my school life i'd been aiming to try everything, to get involved, and i feel like my mom was always telling me "dont waste your time! ming was active and she didnt enjoy herself!" she never liked it when i told her i wasn't like ming and actually enjoyed being busy. =s. or that i could actually handle whatever little i was doing, and probably more. i think i could. i'm not that incapable. i don't exactly understand why she can't stand me being involved in anything co-curricular in school when i want to, but forces me into things i dont want to do outside school.
but still i shouldnt have opened my big fat mouth!
i feel like such a bitch. =(

the second last swimming gala

harimau got third! WHEEE!!!!
(my parents were really shocked. in our defence, they only came in time for the relays) (which we totally screwed btw =P)
its kind of sad....... this was my second last swimming gala! =( next year will be my last.... =(. i didnt even take pix! :( i guess there are memories.... but still. its not entirely the same. pix jog the memory.

ohmygod. i am going to eat daryl leong! he destroyed my fan =(=( i spent time making it okay! hahaha!
winners are all losers in a way.... if you think about it in a weird roundabout way. is it better to enjoy life and relax or is it better to work so hard and do well and work even harder? when does the working stop?
but then again, i guess working hard doesnt mean there's no enjoyment to be had.

you know its scary when your dad starts talking to mr renu and your mom to pn aimi...
haih.
i dont know... somehow i feel i enjoyed last year's swimming gala better. it was fun, running to and fro the booth and the poolside.

i woke up at 5 today! wheeehee. i think mx and i were driving hui juin crazy in the car on the way to cheras :P lol. oops. (btw, did you know mx doesnt know how to eat biscuits??)
and when we reached, we were going to hang the banners up... but there was no space! it was bizarrely dumb. and a waste of time. =P

i can't imagine next year's swimming gala! no more annabelle to ask stupid questions, no more of the other f5s to bug... we'll be the f5s, and we'll be pretty much running the show... fine, at least attempting to. and then at the end of it... that's it. the final swimming gala.

the saddest part of surviving is maturing.

i'm back! from what feels like an eternity of lurkdom... =P
well anyway. whats new with me! why am i talking to myself? oh WELL. moral paper was CRAP! hahaha i felt so out of it i only had lk 10 mins to check.... and i scribbled (inpencil, of course) "THIS PAPER IS CRAP" at the end of the question paper. i Needed a vent so badly!
I'M FREE FREE FREE
IGNORE THE FACT I SCREWED ALL MY EXAMS!
I'M FREE!
I'M HAPPY
(well as long as i dont get my marks back i am...)
(as long i dont think about swimming gala on sunday.....)
(i haven't swam since.... ohmygod i'm gonna embarass myself arent i... NOOOO)
(i'm gna embarass myself tmrw anyway....)
can you, dear nonexistent reader, imagine ME in a skirt? DANCING?! who remembers me dancing? the last time i danced was end of f1. the sej project. the one i forgot all the dance moves (which, btw, were really basic i think. definitely no booty shaking). OMG I HAVE NO BOOTY TO SHAKE! i think thats the biggest tragedy... ohmygod on a stage too. (shall i mention i forgot my ENTIRE piece the last time i went onstage? just awed the crowd with my amazing *cough*appearance [well Actually my teacher played my part so..] since i obviously didnt perform? )
today today today.
there's american idol!
i want jap buffet =(
why is noone online?!!!
i need to go dvd shopping
OOH!
bday wishlist! i've already started compiling! (material things only, immaterial i would write down aobut 100!)
1.Fantaghiro (in english pls! the dvd!)
2.Lucas (by Kevin Brooks), Acceleration (Graham Mcnamee), House on Mango Street (Sandra Cisneros), and The Battle of Jericho (Sharon Draper)
3.Anne of Green Gables-the first 2 movies.... Sullivan Entertainment..... dvd!
4.tom felton! (material, non? XD not really neccessary tho i presume)
hmmm... i dont seem to want many material things.
dont you love the name "House on Mango Street"? i want to buy a house on Mango Street! just so i can say that! oh wait, NO. i want a house on Cherry Tree Lane. number 17 preferably ;) (think mary poppins. not darren/ly, seriously!)

weng ought to thank pk pl al mel ew (i didnt contribute much...) for his advanced biology lessons. hsi yi too. on behalf of them all, i extend our warm welcome for the thank you we've yet to receive....
tomorrow, tomorrow, and tomorrow. ugh.

wang bu liao..

lalala. have not swam at all since friday... i guess its good i swam on friday....
anyway!
cny preparations were hectic hectic hectic. mopping the entire house and sweeping and balcony-washing and window-washing (no, not the ks ly version...) the entire ny eve. and then... cny. 3 days of no scissors, no brooms, no mops. me = lost. such an anti-climax you know? =p
lets see......... i want to drink coconut!!!
being humped by a shih tzu is no fun. seriously. the scars on my legs are finally fading.
this so funny. this cny my dad arranged all our meals. the only 2 meals which didnt involve fried leftover white rice and last yrs leftover lap cheong were cooked by my mom. figures why i hvnt put on as much weight as i expected. yes i'm feeling deprived...=( i mean, what happened to the fresh lap mei fan i used to eat every cny?!
which brings me about to another petty complaint about my family. =p. we buy an amazing quantity of toothbrushes..... about 30 at a shot. but we NEVER have any at home! bcos theyve all been brought 6000 miles away to uk! and same goes with erm... female stuff. =p. and cap minyak kapak.
anyway....
io was just thinking. plane flights must be quite the nightmare for claustrophobics. seriously. even i get a bit claustrophobic sitting in the plane. its like a tightly packed and crowded, HEAVY box, full of living breathing things (competition for oxygen if anything happens.....) and of course, its only about goodness knows how high up in the air?? ah. epitome of safeness.
anywayy....
tmrw i'll be singing
"my bonniieee lieesss ooooverr the ocean....
my bonnie lieees overr the sea....."
*gets rotten tomato confetti and runs off*

be aggressive!

okay. i have lots of hw to do... but well.... its the first day of cny?!?! i have an excuse! i mean i DID do quite a bit of housework yesterday....... so yeah. i declare today my rest day. (like its not my rest day everyday.)
anyway! did you know that dinner is not edible if a dog is humping your leg while youre trying to eat?
valentines day is coming up. which means my cousins bday is. and shortly after, is darrens and lys. sighs. i miss ly! =(
anyway. i;ve been emailing ly rather than blogging, nothing much to say really....
have you ever been the class stationery stand? its amusing really.
GAH!
i need gossip. i do.

why you so like that AH?

i hvnt been updating much. been doin useless stuff which i undo anyway but i'm not going there its just TOO depressing i've been wasting my time!!! =(
ANYWAY. cny soon. my moms starting to tidy up. spent lk the whole sunday (minus about 3 hours in chinatown stationery shopping) tidying up! waaay cool i actually managed to do 0.00000009% of the tidying we need to do before cny! yippee!
erm erm erm
i havent studied for sej. diediedie. GAH! =( i'm scared of failing. i dont wanna fail.

the magic of your wonderland

lala. lys leaving today... =( its kinda sad. i know weng will go on about how we're all not sad just scared of change, but frankly it IS saddening too. well to me. =(
its funny really. i realised that throughout my life i've never really been ambitious. i probly was the most ambition-less kid =s. i mean, at one point i wanted to be a hsewife. then a jaga kereta. it's weird how things change. if i'm not mistaken, i wrote my ambition (in jades f1 autograph book) as to be an olympic swimmer. now, THAT was random. it takes a Lot to get me to swim now! (a lot meaning the threat of getting sweaty doing other sports hehe)
i feel that today i should be happy. for well, reasons. but i'm not. should i be happy? hm.
i have nothing to say, really. which pretty much makes this a redundant blog. oh well.

i just want you to know

lalalalala. i havent updated since a few days ago. i dont think its that long!=p
anyway. what has happened since then? oh erm lets see. i find myself rather preoccupied during a certain lesson (which i will not name bcos the teacher appears to have potential niceness). preoccupied, that is, with discovering that my kneecaps are very dry. really. its almost scaly. shall have to moisturise. and i started picking at my kneecaps instead of listening... (mental note:i will never do that again. it's almost addictive and once you start you cant really stop until you look at your skin -which you dont just in case the teacher catches you - and realise what a nasty effect it has on your skin!)
okay.. not much else been going on....
its half past nine and i havent showered. and we have just seem to have gotten our wqater supply cut opff. thank goodness for tangkis (water tanks)
my comps hanigng. noooo.
i think one of the saddest sounds wouls be the one where there's an ambulance racing up the road, sirens blaring. and dogs howling after it. not barking, mind, but howling. it's just so... it is almost as if the person in the ambulance is dying, isnt it... almost as if the dogs are mourning for the person. its been happening a lot lately. or maybe my dogs have just changed and now like howling after the ambulance sirens. wait. the dogs in the neighbourhood, not just muff and nel.
it's so scary. as days go by i realise more and more that soon i have to grow up!! and that my parents are getting older. that one day i'll be forced to work for my own moeny. one day i cant look towards mom and dad for support and money and everything-that i must be able to offer and provde support for them and money (even tho they Should have suffice pension funds! i hope!) one day i'll be married! (if all goes well, try, 10-13 years time? i mean, i read somewhere that having a baby past age 30 increases the risk of cancer. but then again, the big belly lumpp, the inability to touch ones toes, or to even see them, the horrors of sleepless nights... the overeating and weight gain.... who Wants all that?! one more horrifying thing isthe thought of spending the rest of life with one man. (which is, actually, what i spose i Will want to do. fine. what i Hope to do nayows. i guess.) which just stresses on the importance of knokwing the man before marrying him. omg. omg. i mean, looking at most of the men around me (i'm talking, aged 40+...) they're all grumps! i'm sure they couldnt Alll have been like that Before marriage-theyd be single if they had... in fact i think some (and by some i mean many) may be quite the abusive. i hope i dont marry one of those big old jerks. i hope ming dsnt either.
yes i sounds childish. hehe

they fall within the ashes

today... was well. more of it later.
i dont really know what to blog here and am honestly wondering why i Am blogging for the sake for blogging? hm. nvm.
my fourth toe hurts for no apparent reason.
i'm sleepy :S
i still cant believe i spents lk almost 50 bucks on Those Things =p all jades fault lol!! (note : on the box it said : FOR AGES 3 AND ABOVE) oh well its partially symbolic i guess. when 5 meet!
hmmm.
i cant believe ly and sling are leaving so soon! its just, well, weird.
hehe some baby names are really atrocious. and saddening.
Anyway. there are a number (well, one) of books in times that really should not be placed on the bottom shelf? i mean, what if they get picked up by little unsuspecting ten year olds. very suspicious. (note : i am an angel! i turned it around just in case any kid walked by!-of course, that didnt stop the mean ppl from making me take a pic with it!>( and when you first open the book, it self-turns to dubious pages! not my fault)
let's see.... was there anything else? oh, erm. =p not really. i dont think. except its only 10 and i'm sleepy. something's not right!~

it's raining, it's pouring

and i'm tempting fate by still using the comp.
school's back and with a vengeance. i maintain the fact i dislike the thought of growing older!
mr lee's class was quite funny today! except the part when i didnt realise the questions were on two pages and i only did half of them.... he gave us his hp number too! (no calls past 12!=p) its a little bit weird to have the teachers (mr wong? mr lee?) give us their numbers and all... hm. haha!
anyway, i have to run. i love my comp too much to have it fried
but first! a list of people i shall have to eat!
1- weng. wj too probly hw blablabla! GAH. fake hw + me not knowing + weng not telling me + yishen mentioning something about it too = knock off a few years of my life. and the class thingy! god! i mean.... UGH
2- zulle and van! you Both know i am NOT a good dancer (no micheal jackson!!! >( =p). i have as much grace as a one-legged hairy monster the height of a dwarf! (or maybe a one legged pig?). imagine me trying to cheerlead? disastrous. blindfolds, anyone?
3- ks. for growing taller over the hols. maybe if i eat him i'll grow taller too!
4- ly and sling. for ditching us! hmph!
5- erm. maybe i'm not that hungry after all. =)