cradle!

had the weirdest dream today, last night, you get me.
actually, had TWO weirdest dreams. one involving O levels, which i wish i could do, another about a long-lost friend of mine. who actually, doesnt exist. the O levels one seemed so dejavu-ish. dreams are weird and both dreams have totally freaked me out.. they both seemed so......... real.i mean, normally i forget dreams as soon as my eyes open, but these stuck. and they really confused me.. they seemed so real i almost thought they were. oh well. punishment for reading chick lit the whole day, and rereading the book the very same day. i just realised, all the heroes in the books i adore are Toffish ppl. you know, those hot richass smart welleducated romantic sexaaay brits? =p. note to self : get more bks with NO toff in it. i'm seriously starting to think tht only toff ppl re romantic ahaha.
sis is coming bck in lk 14,15 days. cant wait.
i need to canvass klcc. nvm shall wait for my sis to do that. parents do not look too happy whenever they shop with me. what can i say, oops? =)
anyway!!! bergdorf blondes = FANTASTIC read. get it get it!!! whee!! total nice chick lit thats not too graphic. i mean, can you keep a secret was SO graphic. =p. bergdorf blondes! i want a toff imported to my doorstep. can i? =p i waana be a socialite, with daddys plastics at my disposal. i WISH!!! =D
have started on citizen girl!!! it seems quite nice.... bergdorf blondes is totally nice. beyooond nice LOL!!!
i loveeee book shopping! as good, maybe better than clothes shopping!!! wheee!!!
hw sucks!!! lets all boycott!! hahah!
i want a toff. =p

never fight with idiots. they bring you down to their standards, then beat you at it.

omgosh loong jin is actually poetic enough to come out with that!
anyway, yesterday i went to popular!! got so many books so nice nice nice!!! i;ve finished this lame chinese comicy book my mom made me read - INTEGRITY. pffft. i wonder if shes implying anything. i also finished reading mates dates and temting trouble. lol. at least its amusing. now am close to finishing bergdorf blondes. terribly good read! after this i still have citizen girl, and umm..... this malay novel. for 16 days!! i'm gna be boreeeeed. oh wait, i forgot about my hw. whoops.
its now 13.02, on a holiday, and i;ve already napped twice today, gone out and wandered abt dsara with my mom (boring, all just offices), read a few pages of my book (proof that i AM disciplined. really!), snuck on the comp, eaten three meals...THREE. hm. is this freakish, or just sad. oh well! i mean, three meals by 1.10pm? just SAD. shall have to work off the calories and shop in heels. wait, first, buy heels. then shop in them. =)
atomic kitten's cradle is nice. old. but nice. i lvoe old hits! just so nice and reminsciningish.
am currently addicted to a stupid game to do with words. its stupid. reading is better. =)
ohmy, i just remembered, yesterday, my parents couldnt decide where to eat lunch in chinatown... so we did the ummm..... UNgluttonny way. we ate at one shop then shopped then ate a second lunch =) this is one holiday thats gonna add a lot to my waistline.
i love stationery and book shopping!!!!! =D. esp when saleeees!!!! wheeeE!!!! so happy. i lvoe the book. it better hv a gooood ending!
vannn!!!!!! we must go watch hse of wax. but its over 18. can we movie hop? =s i dont go often enough to know? lol.
yesterday i couldnt sleep. fine i admit, i was reading until about 1.45ish? duh my parents thought i was sleeping =p. anwyay, i opened my room door, and whooooosh, cigarette smoke smells enters my room. GAG! i hate smokers. it stinks lk hell! and i dont want my clothes so smell of that foul thing! if they wanna smell lk they just showered in nicotine they can, but i dont wanna smell lk that, so smoke outside the house la weiiiii.
grgggg.
going bsc later! i hope!!! i hope times if on a sudden 20% sale!! *pray*

four seasons

ppl can irritate me very easily nowadays, i mean, tehy find out one side of a persons story and side them, that i'm fine with. what i'm not fine with is that they tell other ppl that THEY dont know the whole story, hello, ppl? get. a. life. find out both sides to the story, then side, dont tell ppl off, cos you dont know anything about it. dont know? dont judge. simple. bitch. grrrrr.
sighs. my opinion neways. grudge me that and ure a bitch =)
tres hilarious watching ly during the performance. =) that girl ahh!! first she yawns! then she rubs her eyes! then noticing that zulle and i are watching her, she says "i'm not cultured enough, sue me!" lol!! so funny la so cuteee ahhahah! and there was this ms tok lookalk who was bobbing about. almost as mcuh as the bobber. so funnny!! we had dinner in montes. honestly, the atmosphere in montes is just too.... romantic. esp when youre with ur two best frens (all girls, in other words) and there was lk a candle....... and an empty seat next to me so that horrible zulle and ly were lk being mean!! lol!!! oh well. it was fun! they laugh lk mad! thats it, no more mild spicy foodstuff for them. =p. and oh, oh, oh.... we all officially suck in real life simple math!! we were lk *stare at the bill* HUH, who pays wht? hahahahha.
and then we were late, so anyway... the first thing we saw was the woman reciting a poem abt spring. cue : zulle starts laughing. i start laughing. ly starts laughing. all three of us sit there laughing lk idiots as the woman tells us abt the wonders of spring - the squirrels, the flowers.... lol!!! i forget! in my defence, it was funny to see this woman being all sentimental abt spring.. and talking about flowers rabbits animals hahah!
then, summer. the brit guy was freaking cool!!! so funny lol!! and the harpist... damn coooooool!!!! i wanna learn the harp! hahha. the violinist was freaking chunted too!!! her arm was lk.... whoa. hahhah. so chunted la!
at that point, ly was rubbing her eyes and asking, how much longer? zulle was asking whether we were hungry... then we had a break.... ly was lk, finally, over!!!!!!! then they were lk, the show will start in 20 mins.... *cue : ly drops back sadly into her seat* *zulle gets up to get a programme* *zulle leaves her bag behind, ka and ly dont notice, the seat pops back up, zulles bag seems not to be there* *ka and ly walk out. zulle walks back in. cant find her bag. find it under her chair, which has popped back up, actually.*
autumn. its not that sad, but they portrayed it to be really sad. wehen the guy came out to do the poem, he was talking about losing someone dear to him. i couldnt help it. it was funny. i burst out laughing. and then ly and zulle were poking me! for laughing! i mean, it was funny, dont you think =p! the guy was lk almost crying!! haah! the did londonderry air. fine i forgot the name of the song. i know it starts with "ohhh daaaaaannniiiieeeee booooyyyyyyyyyy......" it was goooood.
winter was booorringer. i was hoping theyd end with lk hyperish, but they ended with slowish music.... kinda yawny. then ly was lk fidgeting and yawning so much!!! =D LOL! finally the show ended. by then i think our yawn count was lk ummm 100000? lol! they spent so LONG doing the thank yous. lol!
but it was a good showww. i had funn!

sek pan sek kap

i just realised what a big difference one word is. i mean, siakap tastes HORRIBLE. garupa is reasonable.
my dad has a headache. with his constant whining, i'm lkly to have one soon too. oh well. at least i know who i got it from. =)
KERSHOO!

i dont have anything to write about!! weirdness!
but i HAVE gained fat. this is very terrible. THE terrible moment! die! die! my face is lk, bhoooooosh. =( oh well. i'll change that somehow, during the hols! =) i hope!
plans for my hols :
-get out of the hse
-get the irritation out of my system (that might take a while...)
-get school books in order
-find school books
-do hw
-rot in front of comp
-prepare space for my sister. yay!
-last, but not least, lose the extra baggage!

i actually DO have a long long post. except its very bitchy. its very whatiamfeeling. dogpost. but please dont read it if you think that'd make you lk me less. just ignore it. i just needed to rid my system!

sek pan sek kap

i am a beeeg appell.

got back bm marks today. and moral. i am bermoral!!! =D i passed!! hahah. so did most ppl, but who cares? the point is...... i am bermoral!!!!! lol.
anyway, fighting with someone was mentally exhausting. so we've partially made up. partially being the keyword here. =P cos i dont know if hes okay, but to me its over la. lazy to argue. cat style of living nicer. sleep. eat. no prob. it better be over with you too =p
today, the teachers were pmsy x 100000000. i mean, seriously. they wont listen to our side of the story. we didnt chase ignis out of the class. we gave ourselves the booty, rite? =s, i think. and we did try helping, but got chased out! and sighs. taking out her anger on pk and pl was so not the right thing to do la wei. i mean, she wouldnt even stop bugging pk when she could see how upset pk was!! terrible!
last day of school term. probly our last comp class for the yr =( so not a nicfe thought. comp is basically, hw time! and gossip! and googling hot actors! sighs. over??
and then, next term-no more PE? no more moral probly too, no more this, no more that, no more fun, just books, books, BOOKS. eeks. no more gossip? =(
anyway, my total is far below the 600 mark i should be getting. hahah! not that i deserve it, but it;s more lk a goal.
anyway. to happier topics. holidaaayyy! =(
=( i wanna watch hse of wax. =)

wheee!!

geo is stupid, right? mr ratnam is mean, right? we have a right to complain, right? altho we;re not, right? right!
anyway, today we got back kh. was not as bad as expected. the paper had a lot of flukes in it heheh thank goodness.
one more result thingy. bm. apparently only 5 ppl got A. ly, junkit, ailing, and i dunno two others. freakkkkk. *pray*
today was rather uneventful. the f4s went to see cows and goats i think. lol!apparently loong jin sprayed nigels face with goat milk? =s sighs, cant believe i missed THAT. i dont get it, i think our form is the only one which had a trip requiring ties and blazers. i mean, are we too barbaric and do we have such obviously uncultured minds? =s
mrs ganesh was major pissed with our class today. put it this way. mrs ganesh says 'clear your books'. ppl scuttle off, clearing their books, thinking of all the mouth watering food awaiting us. mrs ganesh says 'thank you class'. she only gets scattered responses of 'thank you mrs ganesh' from seating, walking, moving, swaying, students of 3 cempaka. she gets convinced that we're all disrespectful snobs, the typical insult our class gets. sighs =(. she punishes us with 'no lunch, but lining up outside the staffrooom'. during our little while outside the staffroom, many teachers were proud to smirk at us meaningfully. teachers lk ms selvi and pn zainab smiled unashamedly and laughed at our ummmm. predicament? =s
the teachers really hate us dont they
anyway, jackie got an A for geo too. 80. upgraded. and i cant get upgraded to a B! this sucks! oh well! =D damn chun. congrats jackie!
one more day to hols =s i must go out. or dieeeeeee. =)

=(

today. more marks. only four freaking ppl got A for kh. one is our ever pompous showoff, kai sheng. another is daksha. two ppl are unidentified. i am certain i did not get A, and am now praying that i was not one of the two ppl who got the "coveted" Cs.
shall i complain about someone? yes i shall. too bad. he claims he is not showing off. he claims that he is not boasting. he says that he thinks what he's acting like is fine. i spent five minutes of my precious life yesterday teling him what a pompous arrogant boastful asshole he's becoming. to have him tell me that he thinks how he is is FINE and that i;ve just wasted my precious life on trying to explain to him. bah. arrogant arse. of course, frankly, what he's acting like, will only make us all even MORE sore about our marks, and resent him 100% for rubbing salt in. i mean, who on earth goes around bugging you for marks before happily belting out his marks just to rub it in your face? who whines about getting one wrong?! who smirks at you while saying "i salute mr ratnam" just because mr ratnam's incredibly hard paper makes him the only fucking person with an A in the entire form? who says "i can understand if ppl are upset for not getting 90+ for maths..." in front of ME just because he KNOWS i got lower than 90? i mean, WHO THE HELL DOES HE THINK HE IS?!!! pompous arrogant stupid showoff asshole. pardon my language. am learning beautiful colours, arent i. what give him the right to go about insulting other people, even if it IS a joke. you know what? he claims he was joking when he called me the stupidest one of all, but i bet he wasnt. i mean, if he was he would have had the sense to say so after a while wouldnt he. and and. and. URGH. shall not say this. not honourable of me.
anyway. i shall mention that jun kit got highest for sej, at the risk of being assaulted by AJK members. i still think ajk is mean but heck. ly, HACKS! =p
anyway, i realised what a too-nice person puan rahimah is. i mean, she was giving out marks for spelling mistakes. i mean, i had some last exam and i didnt bug her for marks, i mean, honestly, how can you get marks for knowing the basic idea but spelling the main keyword wrongly? it could mean a totally different thing. and i mean, i can understand if the liiiiitle bit of mark made the diff between an A and a B of a grade, basically. it matters loads. but i mean, do *some* ppl in my class have no integrity? this is what 3 cempakans are becoming thanks to the exams - mark fanatic. crazed, mark lusting, scum, we all are, basically. i guesss i'm one too in a way. sighs =( but i AM trying to not argue over stupid things. tho, puan rahimah, as nice as she is, is totally taken advantage of. poor her la. i'd hate coming into my class if i were her. i;d get a total strict teacher to replace me during exam results time.
sighs. mr sheat doesnt lk me. i was smiling broadly when he was scolding our class. but i couldnt help it, it seemed funny la! whoops. hes not gonna lk me =( as long he doesnt pick on me, i'm fine tho. pls pls, may mr sheat not remember my face.
weng and ks have taken to calling me darth ho. Hotness Obsessor they say. of course they both know what a ho is. of course, they're very lucky i dont intend on suicide just yet. cos if i was, i;d def do the world a favour and get rid of both of them first. i mean, HO? wth?! jackasses. all of them. urgh.
today the ppl who hadnt finished kkayu were rushing madly. i feel so grateful that i'm done. yes i'm gloating lol! no i dont like rotten tomatoes pelting towards me. wj did his lk damn chun he did all today summore damn nice.
if i get a B average. aaaah. this. skunks. all.
and fyi, dear darling kai sheng and weng, i am not a ho. call me one and i wont be able to guarantee anymore. guarantee that i wont come after you with a tukul before i suicidekan diri saya. marks. stink. all.

hanging up. or trying to.

dear puan azizan/whoeversetthebloodymothereffingstupidshit geo paper, i hope you regret the death of me. i really hope you do
dear pompousity, please do not gloat, or hassle me for any of my marks.
mid year exams = shit.
and i wanted to kick ass this exam. i guess i am. my own ass though. i mean, i wanted to make it past 600 safely, not just scraping it thru. and now, look at my marks! i mean, if i can make it to 600 i'd have to get like 90+ for each other exam? or maybe 87+, i'm not counting. this SUCKS. officially.
i mean, take into consideration that last mid sem i got around 90 for geo. (i know i seem lk i'm gloating, but its lkly the ppl reading this got even freaking higher by a lot.) and i got 73 for bm. now, with this terrible geo marks, does that mean i'm going to fail my bm this round? i mean, i got 68 when it was all objective. what if i dont get and average of 80 above? sighs =(
well anyway, i shall complain that weng is an immature boy who tried slipping ice down lys shirt in kfc. and ks is a horny perv who was pretty much imagining kfc buns as ummmm... and umm.... in a way, raping the poor bun. the poor kfc bun. must be traumatised. esp after he dug his finger into it. then used the straw to put pepsi in it. plus, it had to listen to his graphical description of different positions to try out while ummm..... copulating.
i shall also comment that jun kit must be kept away from coffee. we stopped by starbucks and he got a coffee. and went hyper until we reached school and i didnt see what happened to him. whoops.
art = overrated. some pieces were really too deep for shallow me. i mean, they were really weird. at least to me. ly, zulle, ks, nic, junk, are you guys really gonna do that stupid report on the trip?
sighs =(
why is it that some guy gets so freaking high? isnt it a lk pantang to be so boastful? then, WHYYYYYYY is he getting so stupidly atrociously high? that sucks. i mean, the bloody geo paper had questions totally off the syllabus!! only a shittily lucky bugger would manage to get THAT high.yes kai sheng i envy you. not the part where you happily declare in the art gallery that you are the smartest and i am the stupidest. yes i am holding a grudge. in my defence, it comes naturally to me. and just to spite you, i shall praise my sister and gloat on her behalf, since she never does anyway, that she probly could've done it too during her time, and shes NOT a pompous showoff, what more a self admitted one. =( yes i am greeen. no its not a nice feeling.
SIGHS!
had some of nics coffee. was nice. passed up my kh kerja kursus. thank goodness she accepted it. i thought she wasnt going to cos i didnt carve the top part! aah.
i hate marks. screw them.
=(
lets see. i have 16 days of home. with my uncle in the house. i shall die and die and just die. i can NOT stand my uncle. die me die. better than 16 days with the man.

boring boring

i did something productive today. i mopped. wheee. whoever thinks that exercising or hseworking makes you happy, you;re wrong. at least in my case. happiest left with the phone, tv and a good dvd. provided the tv is working!
today got oc!
sighs. i hate my math marks. so far its only math i hate. cos weve only gotten math. siigh. and i mean, its like, look at the ppl in class. they all got lk, freaking high. and still they can be upset specimens. sighs. is ms selvi rubbing off on me. "specimens".
bored bored bored
according to tickle, i am like a koala when it comes to partying. strange, i do recall the first and last time i saw a koala in the perth zoo. it wouldnt face us intrigued koala watchers, and proceeded to give us a splendid view of its nice seated bum (and back). niice. =)
watched the legend of bagger vance. however its spelt. was really really good. matt damon, will smith, charlize theron. man it was a good show. my tv's pmsy, and i cant watch it now ='(

reality check

i promised myself i would do something productive today.
so i watched 'romance in rome' (=s. i think thts what its called. freaky old, in black and white. audrey hepburn's first show!!! lol!) and bridget jones 2. i know bridget jones two is reaaaallly old, but at first it wasnt clear so we didnt buy it and then my dad wouldnt let me buy it thinking we had it until finally i proved we did NOT have it! lol! colin firth = hot. =) i lk bridgets character!!! shes fat! and shes a klutz! and shes silly! and still the hunks like her! proof that tv is def fantasy, not reality. i mean in real life they wouldve dumped her.
anyway. yesterday i watched alex and emma. sighs! the ending was soo sweet. the part he was telling her what he really felt etc etc.... swoon. fantasy rocks. i mean, the only guy in reality i can think of who lks a girl so much is well, *bleeep* liking *bleeep* since primary. i know the first *bleep*, despite his skinniness is strong, so i'm not gonna mention the bleeps. swoon
anyway, i'm offended. i think the guy in the shop where i bought the dvds called me "plumpie". shall boycott that shop. summore the "first daughter" was screwed at the ending!! it didnt play properly. i bought from that shop! pfft!
oh. on the more academic side. got back math marks. I OFFICIALLY SCREWED MY MATH PAPER!! i mean, i couldve gotten FIVE more marks at LEAST if i had been less careless. urgh. urgh. urgh. screw the papers!
anyway, next week is my last lesson with my piano teacher before my exam. which is in mid aug lol! gna hv a diff teacher while my teachers on maternity leave. which kinda made me realise how much more self content women are when theyve got a round tummy or little brats running about. i mean, theyre so much more at peace with themselves! even tho theyre actually driving ppl around them freezing cold with icelike temperature. honestly, maybe pregnant women should take some time off to visit the artic. instead of making kl artic. its kinda cool tho, theyre so happy and all. so chunted.
today, i had FOUR main meals. wait, technically three, cos i did wake up at abt 10ish, 11? =p. i ate at delicious by ms read. ms read is lk for plus size ppl. my theory is that she has the restaurant to fatten ppl up so theyll HAVE to go to the store, kan? so i didnt want to eat there, but nooOOOoo... my parents insisted on going! sighs. i want slightly more healthier parents! grg. grggggg. pls, dear god, buddha, allah, animisme, spirits, anything, pls, pls pls pls do NOT let the food i eat show on my thighs, calves, ankles, arms, waist, neck, nose, chin, face. let the food i ate only increase the sizeishness of my hips and bum and chest, or just as good, my height! NOT my thighs, or nose, pleeeaseeee!! or my fingers!! theyre chubby enough!!! arrrrgh!!!! and my nose, it cant be fatter! please, i pray, do not et me get the nose of the diameter of a coke can. dont let me get thighs berdiameter a basketball. do not let me have shapely, or worse, unshapely legs and arms and figure. URGH.
sighs. sighs. sighs. BAH!
am downloading disney songs. they make me feel gooooooooooooooood. and when you feeeel good, it showwwwwwws. according to ntv7 i think. gosh. i neeeeeeeed astro!! and more mangoes. elephant tusk!
my sisters coming back in 24 days i think!!! =D. oh NO. i have to make space for her clothes. i have to continue sleeping on the sofa. sighs. i get to gossip! and shop! wheeee! i get to be sat on. and unspoilt. =( but i get tax free goodies!!!!!! but i get to be nagged extra. but i get to force her to iron my school uniform!! but i have to deal with her constant whining. worse than mine. sighs. oh well. its gonna be fun!!!

exams = over

wheee!!!
teachers were REALLY pmsy tho, during moral. i think my blood pressure soared and touched the moon. lets just say that i overestimated two hours and dawdled until i realised i had NO time! die. and then ms selvi was so pissed she was lk "NOONE GOING OUT UNTIL BLABLABLABLA" she kept us in till lk, 3.28ish? 3.26ish?
i was what on earth?! my bus wont wait for me! i wont get to talk to anyone before climbing onboard the grumpy drivers bus!
a very weird thing just happened. a funny thing popped out saying it was updating my program. hm. odd.
anyway, i have decided ms tok is actually one of the more amicable teachers. one of the nicer ones. altho she occasionally gives me a you-are-weird look. oops. pn zainab is quite nice too. and i am indebted to pn nora for saving or at least trying to save my definitely dead kh project.
i think i have had too much of min de for a lifetime. that terrible person was very tactless when pointing at nat see (i think) and saying - look at HER! ms tok *something something, i tuned out temporarily..* 100%.... soft skin, white(or was it fair) skin.... long hair.... NOT LIKE YOU!!! LOOK AT YOUR HAIR ASO CAN SEE EDI!!
sighs i think i am disciplined. based on the fact i did not curse him. i think i didnt.=)
i feel sleepy, somehow.
siighs.
i hate exam marks. screw them all over. bah.
apparently kh marks are really bad. well it dsnt help that the highest=ks, 82% (!!!!) only a total of three ppl got an A, apparently one person failed. and that i screwed (zulle, pk : skrood, skrued) up the SIMPLEST of the questions in the paper.... i pray that her answer sheet was screwed or that she was pulling their legs when they asked. screwed times infinite.
ly zulle !! we MUST go out. i need to get out of the house! get rid of (exam+nagging) stress! sigh!!
wheeheeeeeeeeeee
it rained today during our geo. ly and zulle decided it was the info pouring out of their brains. i think the clouds were crying for my geo exam. which inevitably, i screwed up big time. urgh. oh well. OVER i shall NOT think abt it!
sighs! i can NOT believe the nerve of min de. i mean, what if i was very VERY emotionally unstable? hmph. i cant believe the nerve of darren either. urgh. mean ppl!
sigh. theres this f1 dummy who keeps calling me "vincent". gosh. i dont even remember his name. irritating little critter taller than me. URGH.
i was randoming out the other day, and i remembered the rumours abt two little f1 girls who crushed on kai sheng. me = amused + horrified + tickledtodeath.
i mean, well you know how some girls check out guys asses (coughcoughsulingcoughcough). imagine these girls checking out our dear taikai's ass. whoa. i. feel. obscene. positively, that thought has to R-rated for ppl who arent crushing on him.
mcfly-obviously is a gorgy song! fine maybe i'm ketinggalan. wtv, its nice!
i want a f1 reunion la. or 6terra, i miss yitang roshan shinyii. and jade. most def. that shinyii ahhh i tell you! he come back aso never see me wan! not fair man!! >( and the twins are one of the most unsocial ppl!!! well to me at least. but that could be bcos weng said to kinhoe that i lked him, and kh with his TINY head probly believed it. weng = rumour monger. sighs i wanna see jethro again laaaaa!!!!!!! remember last time first time he came into cemp they were all saying he lked tiffany? =p. ooh i also wanna see sze wen la. its been ages since i saw her, and thinking abt it makes me feel OLLLLD. and to think, its only what, 2 yrs since they left, less actually. what will i think of it when i'm old? i'd feel lk i;m 80!
today weng was being very lame. he hopped abt on one leg when i told him so. hm.
i havent had rotiman bread for ages. i miss rotiman bread. lol. i mean the rotiman with his little honketty honketty thingy and the funny thingy attached to his motorbike. sighs.
i miss disney movies!! lol! second childhood LOL!
why dont they remake disney version of anastasia with real ppl? the dimitri guy would be hot. right? =p

dup dup dup. one more!

one more exam to total hallelujah.
ignoring the fact i screwed up all my exams, sej today was surprisingly fun!!! can tembak tembak tembak! eenie meenie mynie MOH! =D damn syok. tho i bet i wont be saying taht when results come bck. oh well. screw it.
i came bck at abt 4? called my sis. who didnt wanna talk to me. ate. tried to study. fell asleep on my bks for 2, 3, 4 hours? woke up hungry, somehow. =s. came online! bhoo!
anyway. exams are gonna screw us all over. i'm using the word 'screwed' excessively, but hey, in my defence i heard the phrase "i'm screwed" many MANY times. and used it too =p "i screwed up this exam!"
i realised i have this terrible habit to tug at my hair whenever i feel stressed, or am contemplating which answer to tembak. examinating is gna make me a baldie. KNOCK WOOD AAAH! and to think, if not for the fact one day i realised my shirt had so much hair, i might not realise it and continue the bad habit- i'd be bald by 15! sigh! =(
well. at least exams will be over tmrw. kinda. i dont care, after geo i'm gna be hyper and hippy happy and not care abt moral. screw moral!! whenever it involves creativity i flunk anyway! so why bother! wheee!!!
anyway, the f4/5s exams all finish at 3.15 now onwards =D. nvm i'll shut up now. dont like rotten tomatoes neway
one more paper to.............. marks. crap i shouldnt have thought of that =(
i SHOULD be studying geo lk all the kiasu classmates of mine shouldnt i? =p not that i'm condemning kiasuness, i'm praising it in a way. its apparently very singaporean, and look at the singaporeans! theyre successful! and i'm kinda kiasu in a way? =) in a lazy bum kinda way. but then who isnt.


listen to this! what kinda lousy frens do i have hm!

the end is nigh says: it appears on ur report card ....
haha
dontworry kann
being the good frens we are
once you expire
we'll just weigh your body down with concrete blocks and dump you into the river the first chance we get
and your decomposing corpse will bloat, rot, and be slowly devoured by the various aquatic organisms in sg. klang
and you will rest happily ever under (water)!
and your skeletal remains will have your dream figure!
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Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
girls=hot
but
kah ann= new boy in 3 cempaka
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awned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
kah ann = does not want khu after vk
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:

Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
owh
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
kah ann = darren
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
same malangness
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
aigh
not you but me. says:
wth?
not you but me. says:
malang how?
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
only difference
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
u got a tukul
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
i got none
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:

Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
same gender
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
same hair length
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
same iq
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
same fatness
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
same hornyness
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
wai
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
wait
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
kah ann > darren
Pawned by Zaijarah... its time for Biokiah says:
now thats more like it
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eeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrryyyyyyghhhhhhhh *growls* gna slap that bugger ks!! =p kai sheng, you;ve been hanging abt hsi yi too long. youre getting mean and sadistic!!!
equation : (kai sheng) + (hsi yi's influence) + (exam stress) = A MEAN AND SADISTIC EVIL INSULTING KAI SHENG! hmph i'm hurt! =)
darren, i am gna kill you. i get ly and we'll belasah you, like ketua samseng stlye =p

not you but me.

sighs. today i realised that wtv i study does NOT come not. kh=BAD. BAD BAD BAD. BAD times infinite.
huijuin, i was joking! i sincerely do apologise to you and ur brother for any evil intention you mightve thought i had! but i'll be evil and admit that theres one thing ur bro and mr shong have in common - they remember weird stuff. mr shong remembers sej and ur bro remembers jokes. or maybe its just me, i dont remember both. sorry!!! will try to shut my bigassmouth more! sorry!
sighs.
i fell asleep during sc2. with my pencil in my hand. apparently i move a lot in my sleep. while turning pgs. when i woke up i had to rub conteng marks off every alternate page of my sc2 paper. =s. odd. aand irritating.
SIIIIGH!
funeral wishes for me (when marks come back)
1- i want the really professional ppl who do makeup for the dead to do mine for me. i'm gna look good in the coffin, i must! =p
2- i want someone to be there.
3- i want kai sheng and ly to hug in memory of their dear fren and teaser kah ann. =D. and matchmaker for this too!
4- i want zulle to errrrm..... make jade come back from aussie to see me off to the big big ground beneath.
5- flowers. i want loads of them.
6- disney's anastasia dvds, vcds, cds. play them during the funeral. if spirits do exist, confirm-i'll be watching.
7- i want to be sprayed with dkny be delicious perfume. i'll die smelling fantabulouso.
8- i want a 100% on my bm paper. -hint to pn zainab- and that 100% bm paper? frame it up. wait. laminate it. then photocopy a gazillion copies and distribute to everyone, i mean everyone, even strangers. after that, frame it up. i wnt a xeroxed copy of the paper buried with me. or cremated. i havent decided.
9- i also want the person who designed our uniform to.... nvm i shall NOT finish my sentence, for fear of disrespect and jail imprisonment? =p
10- i want tom felton and jesse mccartney to umm turn up at the funeral. yup. good luck to you living ppl in arranging that.
11- i want hsi yi to write another secret, and burn the instructions (note : DIRECT INSTRUCTIONS) or bury it with me, depending on my decision. but its a hard decision you know? i mean, do i want to be buried or cremated?!
- the grosser details, ask my sister. whom i insist must fly back asap. i AM more important than her exams after all arent i? =p. lol. JK!

welcome

math exam sucked major. cos i made stupidest mistake ever. shall now go into detail. i mistook acd and did acb. and then when it came to measuring, before i could write my answer down, "MASA SUDAH TAMAT". sighs. i think pn nora enjoys the sadistic pleasure she derives from being inviligator. however its spelt.
i hate this. ms tok is gna die laughing when she marks my math p2.
i have to start on kh studying.
feel like you're a doormat? with the words "step here" imprinted all over you? and when you realise and try to stop, ppl say you're grumpy? and then u get confused, is it you really being grumpy and thinking bitchy or is it that ure usually just a picnic mat? high five.
*shengteng style* DISCONNECT!
byebye life of me when papers come back. byebyeeeeeee.

aurrrrrrgh

i HATE studying
am break-ing to blog now. since parental units are out anyway.
sighs
i have gotten a gigantic little idiotic zit on my cheek. the size of jupiter. kai sheng thought it was a mozzie bite. aurrrrrgh!!!!! am out of tea tree oil to kill the nasty little thing too!! =(
noone is ever online. am i the only bum online happily lazing? i just cant concentrate now la.
SIGHS!!!!
go away jupiter!

if only studying was as addictive as the internet

sighs. yesterday my parents were having a minor tiff about my granma. fine. my whole family. via the phone. you see, my granma is kinda a mini version of a human veg. shes here, physically. but mentally, well. she cant control her bladder. never talks. only smiles in my uncle's clinic. which is not her tetap place. the last time i heard her talk was when she thought my dad was my uncle no 1. and none of my uncles except one can really take care of her. and the complication of money. its sad. i never wanna live till i'm that old and unwanted. conclusion : i'll die young after plastic surgery. at my prime. so everyone who looks at me in my coffin will not think "that was the best option for her.." and they could all think that i was the most gorgeousest corpse ever. wheeeeeee.
its only 9.15 and i've been online for an hour. this. is. sad. i havent started sej f3 yet. i havent done any f1 either, except ch1. all praise mcquestions. i havent done ANY eng or bm. i have only done one chapt of kh. i;m so deaddddd.
i wish i could go to the gold expedition =(. nvm i'll spend my holiday clearing cupboard space for when my sis gets her ass back. and planning how to wheedle her back into the car, and being my driver.
i dont like ppl playing my hair. some ppl i'm close to, i'm fine. but i mean.one girl, who i barely talk to, just came up to me and messed up my hair. and said "i feel tall! kah ann, you promised to grow taller this year!" i was like totally stunned. i mean. coming from a younger girl. i couldve slapped her there and then if not for possible suspension etc etc. gosh! i mean, i knOW i'm short. you dont have to rub it in. i know my hair is short, you dont have to mess it up just to remind me. i'm not a puppy dog who likes getting my head pat. i prefer my head unmanhandled by little brattty younger girls. i mean, how would you have liked it if i untied your hair and tied 200 knots on alternate bunches of it? then messed your hair up even more? i dont think you'd have liked it at all! pffffft. so much for 'respect your elders'. i mean, i wouldnt have done that to ANYONE, what more ppl older than i? urgh.
am i really that intolerating. i've been getting really pissed with a lot of ppl recently. but i mean, wouldnt you be irritated if bratty younger ppl kept messing your hair and commenting about your short height? and if ppl stopped saying "hi kah ann", but started greeting you with "how's *so-and-so*?" "hows *sns* and you?" "how come you guys arent together?" "do you still like him?" ? mind, not alternating betweeen all three, four questions. the three questions come all at a go, even tho my answers are ALWAYS the same. "i dunno, why?"- "i dunno, why?"- "i dunno, why?"- "yes, why?"
speaking of which, recently my maths book took a stroll out of my bag into annes locker. and 2-3 days ago my sc notebk took a one day awol out of my bag to end up in my locker the next day, totally freaking me out and resulting in a lot of emotional stress. i mean i love my science notes. lk seriously love them. i actually took the pains to try drawing most of the diagrams in there. and labelling. and i know it sounds as though i misplaced my sc notebk, but honestly, i can swear it was in my bag when i went to school. then during sc it wasnt there. i checked my locker 5, 6 times. not there either. =( its freaky. i mean the ppl who know my combo wouldnt be interested in my notes. i mean, ly? ks? al? =s. sighs.

irritation.

nic once said he thought i didnt hold grudges. thats one of the most bizarre things ever said methinks.
sighs. i get so so pissed when ppl bug me incessantly about who i lk. dont you? i mean, is it quite necessary to ask me whether i still like that person every day. is it? must i go about with a sign on my head saying I STILL LIKE SO-AND-SO to get ppl to stop asking me that question day in day out? okay, here's for the record-yes i still like so-and-so. satisfied?
recently ive been having a lot of pent up anger. and zits are appearing on my face lk daisies POP POP WHOOSH. i make sense. really.
min de is freaking irritating. and he's hitting on ly incessantly. yes kai sheng, i give you full permission (?!) to my tukul bongkol bulat. while you're at it, i shall mention that darren khu is also hitting on liyian.
dont kill me. dont eat me. i'm not yummy.

very confusing

i know i SHOULD be studying. i also know that i cant concentrate now anyway. ah well. screw studying-its overrated.
crushes. some last for a week. some for a month. some for a year. wow i know my time sesh thingys. whoopeedoo! but i mean, why crushes? cos we get crushed rite i spose. what is the diff between having a crush and being in love?how can you tell? the word love is so committedish.
gossip making can be done playfully. it may or may not contain some truth. but. how to tell whether its right or wrong? i mean, you cant always just pop up to the ppl/persons involved and demand the truth. its just not done. sometimes. but i mean, by worrying so much you may make matters worse. and in gossip, you never know who's right or wrong. its not black and white, its greyyyyyyyyyy. somewhere along the gossip line there's bound to be some secretpromise-breaking or just 100% fabrication. why do ppl rumour monger? i mean, making rumours out of scratch. they realise that it can cause very high blood pressure to hear rumours involving themselves or wtv? am i even making sense? i guess not. SIGH. am muchishly upset.and worried. but then i shouldnt worry so much, should i? it'd only make matters worse, esp since the source is totally unreliable. right? wtv. i neeeeeeed clarification.
think before you rumour monger. please. gosh, i sound lk one of those lame radio ads. dont drink before you drive! wtv!
today. weng told pn rahimah abt well, you can guess what. omgosh weng i so wanna kill you. baham style. make rojak.
got wj to help me pakukan part of my kkayu!!! i dunno how i pakukan the nail till it got bent and all. and the wood had this ugly holeish thingy. wj had to pull out the nail. damn chun. bare hands. then he pakukan again. wheee damn syok just sit there goyang kaki watching him do for me. lol. am eternally grateful to wj. and sean for gergaji-ing my kayu. let;s just say my manual-workish skills leave much to be desired. i can only sandpaper, and even that i dont do well.
today i melanggar copyright yw and hj-mengguna their selama-lama etc etc line. sorry! lol. so lame. ah well-the story of my life!! =p
i hate this!
i still feel mega weirded out. odd.
am going to resort to food now. my best fren. when in doubt, consult chocolates. they dont always have an answer, and heck they do cause emotional stress eventually, but at least they console temporarily.

a kiss is an application on the top floor for a job in the basement

no its not perverted. no its not my idea. its truth. just hard to accept cos it puts kissing in very VERY sinister way ishly.
today ms selvi complained that i was getting lazy. to be honest i was more amused than insulted and worried. when was i ever not lazy? oh wait my boo. she was talking about kah urn, not me. sighs. in my defence, try putting urself in my shoes! i was all ready to zzzZ and feeling so proud of myself when i remembered my eng hw. i should be applauded for even mustering the discipline to get out of the sofa and do my hw. fine maybe not. but i mean, how many ppl drag themselves out of bed and do their hw with a big cheesy grin on their face? noone, thats what.
and pn zainab complained that i only pass up my bk lk what, once in 3 months? hmph! true, but i mean. at least i do my work. you know what? actually i hvnt done that melengkapkan teks due in feb, so maybe i'll just shut up. sighs. my prestasi menurun. didnt help that i did my krgan berpandu in the wrong bk i spose. am working my way into pn zainab's bad books a bit too quickly for my liking.
SIGHS.
my haiiir. nvm i'll shut up.
kai sheng keeps calling me a gay anime guy.
then hsi yi will tell him not to insult anime.
where does that leave me?
oh yeah my mistake again. leaves me with nic consoling me -"you;re quite a cute GUY". guy is the very operativeish word here.
SIGH!!!
i remember asking my cousins why on earth guys play so much dota and all that. they were just as confused as to why girls chat so much. =s
fell asleep and didnt study today =(. i slept till 6, believe it or not. and then i went out for dinner. and grocery shopping at bangsar village. then tmc. and fos.
arrrrrrrgh.

bhooom

*rushing up stairs when late for assembly. sees nick. nick is laughing. nonstop. smirking. looking at my hair. not good sign*
*hanan demands for the name of the place where i got my hair cut. declares self-righteously, he will never EVER go there.*
*WHO's THE NEW BOY IN CLASS?-weng and wj demand*
*it's okay kah ann, i'll call you a cute boy...-nic yei. erg, now i remember why i minislapped him*
*your hair! why did you cut it?! it was better before! now you look lk a boy!!-jackie, first thing in the morning. yhiipeee.bah.*
*your hair's not THAT bad.....-all the girls after a while of me hair-tugging and whining*
the winner : *pull a horrified expression*OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME... - the first words i heards frm jc today. abt my hair. not exactly consoling.
so far, the most satisfactory reaction from a living thing abt my hair has been from my cat. i think she prefers this haircut. or maybe she just dislks it more and wants to destroy all my pants or shorts. even skin. or maybe my skin and shorts just have the same texture as what she expects of a scratching pole.
honestly, hsi yi. if you wanna be a sadist, you don't need all your mathematical scientific wtv brains. just be a hairstylist k?

living a nightmare

i look lk a boy. seriously i do.
i mean last nite i went for tartuffe rite. and zulle saw me and started laughing. so bad! my haiiiiir!!!!!! and i cant even have it shorter, cos if i do, i might as well shave my head. ERGH. mega nightmare. =(
this sucks!
studying is terrible..............................................

the hairdresser who held a grudge

my hairdresser is holding a grudge against me. he has cut off a LOT of hair and now, i resemble a BOY. so much that when the doreen woman was commenting abt a guy with his handphone (she meant harvey), mx thoiught she meant me. holy crap, i'm doomed. i'm talking mega, MEGA, doomed. we're talking, crapola here. i might have to resort to a paer bag until my hair grows more. or maybe i could get my parents to write in a letter to school saying that its a ummm medical condition and i have to constantly wear a hat. lk they would.
just l;k yesterday, we were having our usual and interesting math lesson. when suddenly ms tok commented that shen's blog had a lot abt zulle in it. it didnt click at first. then suddenly.... tara goes lk "EH MS TOK READS BLOGS?!?!?!"
and then i realised, my blog is linked on shens site
i blogged abt who i lked before.
OHMIGOSH i am so so doomed.
sighs
my hair. =(

NO MORE KK!!!

but i hv yet to pass up my geo kk. oh well. screw it.
today we had lk 2 lectures frm dr rizal. freak that man talks too much too long. fell asleep la. or at least tried to. with junkit and whatshisname- the harimau guiy who's NOT jasper-blowing my hair. god those two are secocok. they shld get married. and learn to shut up during lectures when i'm trying to catch beauty sleep.
hsi yi oh hsi yi mengapa secret you susah nak cari. i dont get nething!!
anyway. i love burnt bacon. not those undercooked little slices of meat they serve in perth. nice, proper, homecooked, BURNT bacon. YUM.
oh i just remembered junkits shouldbelifepartner. his name is min de. if thats spelt proper.
neway.. bacon calling me.

sugar high

got back from camp today. the funness!! this camp is lk officially the most what camp. chunted. the bestest camp food ever. damn fun. wheee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
camp:food.gossip.scandal.guys.showers.chess.filth.wet.ants.cool.sea.
.creepynightwalk.stupidsongs.stupidperformance.piggingout!!
the things i saw or did at camp. damn fun wei!
bus ride there : sat with nigel half the way. freak. nigels horniness knows no boundaries.
first morning exercise i smartly wore a skirt (shorts soaked by sea yesterday) and struggled. proof : do not underestimate the abilities of girls in skirts. i am proud to say that i did do MOST of the exercises and stretching.
this morning : friendly advice from any david&goliath lover - do not wear the "boys are stupid. throw rocks at them" shirt while talking to guys in the middle of their campsite. freak. the "sand" they pour on. sucks. and you get a lot of threats too. damn scary. but the shirt is nice!!
now i''ll just go die. so much bloody work!!