a new year!

i havent blogged in ages. months.. so i suppose no one bothers reading this anymore.
which, weird as it seems, is actually a comforting thought! it's nice to know i can Really, truly, just type away here...
anyway yes, college has started and SPM results are coming out soon. the not-so-lovely nightmares of 5/7As has struck and turned me into a nervous mess :S
i mean seriously. today i woke up (slightly jetlagged) because of the alarm next door. hah. it went off at 4. and i couldnt go back to bed because all i could think about was the horrible thing called SPM results.

anwyay.
today i went back to school for swimming gala! was nice. but saddening.. it's like.. it's not a part of me any longer! i dont have a place i need to be, anything i need to do.. it's a weird feeling. such a change from juggling kepoing the class store and running to do the relay.. and cheering.
yeah. it was weird.
made me depressed and all.. i'm not old, and i still have the mentality of a lower secondary kid.
but i dont fit in anywhere really, not now! not in school, not in college.. it's bizarre. i know, change is necessary for us to move on. i realise that, i do! but it's just depressing. it's exciting but scary and all. i hate how people drift apart. i hate how we change. how i change. how things change...

funny, isnt it. i was walking along battersea bridge in london sometime last week and i realised something weird. i love the view along the bridge, but until that day, i had only ever looked to one side of the bridge, no matter which side of the bridge i walked.. not really an epiphany, is it? but still. how many times do you see, without actually seeing? i know i do, loads. maybe that's why i never know my way about.=s.

but yes. walking about london this time, i noticed so many things i had never before. (it's not likely that theyre new either, Heh, i mean, theyre old!) it was strange. there are so many pretty things about. ordinary, simple things which are so easily unnoticed...

anyway yes. it feels better, ranting here. but i just realised i have a mechanics assignment. whoops. :)

my insane drama spree

haha. i;ve been watching doramas lk crazy. i swear its supremely unhealthy.

and oh yeah! i *heart* my japanese series. the heroine is so lolable.
i mean. its really painful tho. so bad i almost scream with her.
and oh. sad. but true.
i started scolding her.
to the point where my mum was lk...
*anxious voice* ANN..... are you talking to.. YOURSELF?!

heh. heh.
oops.
thank goodness she was too absorbed in my other korean series. only you.
she's watching it for lk the THIRD time.
and its already 3 in the morning.
insane!

oh! the other day we had diving lessons.
i got a snog rash from the mouthpiece thingy.
please dont ask me how. i dont know! heh.

and my comp is now...
in permanent LARGE MODE.
LIKE THIS.

cos...
i dunno.
its funny really...
i called darren to ask for help..
and yeah...
i managed to make my screen rotate around.
squish the sides in such a way tht the middle part was FAT and the sides were THIN.(a really cool effect - moving the cursor and seeing the size change. i was amused)
i also managed to make the edges of the screen curve in. and become a bit parallelogrammy. and also move it updown leftright.

BUT... i didnt manage to make it normal.
heh.
so now my uncle turned the resolution all funny and i feel lk i'm reading one of those learning-to-read books.

the only good part?
i get to watch my drama in a bigger size :P

you have got to be joking.

my aunt called. she's on the phone with my mum right now.
they are discussing the sembi scenario. and i'm a pro at eavesdropping on their conversations (i mean. you can hear it from almost anywhere in the house.)
anyway mum's been thinking of putting sembi down... she still cant poo/pee by herself, and she's too lazy to even walk around by herself. well the poo/pee factor is the catch.
it's a) gross; and b) time consuming.

mum dsnt want to spend her life washing the poo off sembi's bum. who can blame her? she's got a life too!
and i'm not stupid. i heard.
my aunt's solution to the problem? GET ANN TO DO IT.
gosh.
honestly, my aunt? definitely NOT in my top ten fav ppl list right now.

i mean. helloooo?! school? i've done it before (to my mum's credit, i almost threw up. i think mum's superwoman for tahanning.) but i have no time goddamnit.
if you want to clean sembi's bum you jolly well come back and do it yourself. pin it on me? go die. pls. now and then i dont mind but it's not like you, of all ppl, have a right to volunteer MY time.

and my uncle? her opinion? NAH HE'S GOT TO BE BUSY. hello?! student with hw and school and all the chores? more time than the one who spends the whole freaking day on the net? pls! i'm free, but still. he's free-er. it's my time. i'll do it, but not if she tells me to. if my mum did i wouldnt mind.
damn it.

miracles happen, dont they?

i just had to blog.
it's funny how i only ever blog when i'm pissed or upset or bored. seldom when i'm happy.
but tht;s not the point.

on tuesday...... was walking to secret recipe. saw ling's mum with ai shen, getting into the car.
continued walking.
a few things happened all at once - the car door opened. a shrill scream sounded. a bike roared to life and zoomed off. ling's mum got out of the car, looking a wee bit shocked.
"it's okay, he only got my handbag..."

right outside our school. secret recipe. oh gosh i was so traumatised. it is traumatising, isn't it?

this happened on weds.
morning, before the bus came... i was in the garden with my mum. sembi was missing. we kept calling and calling her... but no sembi. weird cos she's always there to jump on me and try to leave a muddy pawprint on the white school uniform.
i came back from school with a ton of hw to see a nelson but no sembi.
to see a stressed out mum.
are you busy? she asks. free to go to the vet now?
 what happened to sembi? where's she?
i'll tell you later. no rush. wanna go shower, etc?

right. this is pointlessly redundant.
the main thing is, well... from what my mum said.

my mum couldn't find sembi at all this morning.
as she was going out, she saw sembi a few houses up, with a sarung/shirt (well basically a foreign bit of clothing) tied around her neck and looking very blank.
she got out of the car.
found tht sembi's cone had been nicely removed from her head. someone tied the sarungy thingy around her neck to the tree. there wasn't any blood.
mum untied sembi. tried to call her.
the usually bounding, 4-feet-in-the-air dog didn't move. or should i say, Couldn;t move.
mum rushed home to call the vet.
sembi had to wait around an hour for them to come get her.

she's now in the kennel thingy at the vets place.
her spine is injured. her spinal cord is potentially damaged, permanently.
she cant move her hind legs - she has no feeling and doesnt react when her hind legs are jabbed with a forceps. hard.
she could be paralysed.
if she really has no chance of recovering the use of her hind legs, we might put her down.
i mean. otherwise she would be forced to relieve herself, well, on herself.
the unlikely-but-best-possible scenario is that her spinal cord isnt too injured, and that she can regain the use of her hind legs. minimal usage, nothing like before. but still something.

the vet said "haiiiih..... broken legs, i can heal. but spines, and spinal cords..."

i went to the vet to see her. she tried to come out. but she couldnt move.
i cried like a baby.
this was the dog which practically leaps into the air at the whiff of food. the lively dog, always hyperactive and tearing around.
she isn;t even a year old yet.
and now she looks so confused, as if saying, "why can;t i get up!"

i hope whoever did this suffers. badly.
but most of all, i hope she gets well.

it's a beautiful day

today we broke a 12-year record!

yes you guessed it.
listen up people : HARIMAU WON THE SWIMMING GALA 2007!!!!!!!
you know why? it's all because of our amazing swimmers, who were so dedicated. i adore them ALL 101%.
in dsara, we have primary swimmers who are SO dedicated and committed. really. they were... well it's indescribable.*sends a hug* their parents can be a bit scary and a bit protective, but they are the ones who really well, push the swimmers to do their best.
and we have some really good secondary boys swimmers *sends a hug to all, watches justin koh run away like he did today XD*
and our f5s - mx, pl (yeong shin too). i can't thank them enough. finally, these ppl joined the gala. great cos they were good. and dependable. perfect. *sends hug*
mel. she helped me look for the swimmers all the time... *squishes mel**ahhh that felt good**XD*
edmund... you know what, he was really responsible. i was so impressed i started slacking. =)
and cheras, oh gosh. they were really really good. the captains? they were the ones who made edmund and i do work. isabelle? did more than three times as much work than i ever did during my tenure as an assistant swimming captain (oh wait, what did i do? zero! well basically she did 50+% of the total work needed by both campuses - maybe even more). the swimmers? hah. want me to begin? nah, i wouldnt be able to stop. fab, to cut it short.


okay *takes a deep breath* i know just what my sister would say : "goody goody gumdrop, it wasn't me it was you! "

well. it wasnt me. i swam exactly 2 events, and we lost those. but i wouldn't change anything for the world. it was the swimmers. entirely you guys. *applauds* you guys rock.

so, on the unlikely chance that there are any Harimau swimmers out there reading this, you were great! we did it, all because of you!

and the teachers were really fantastic too. mr wong, mr ashwin, and mr lowrence, and any other teacher i might've missed out. really helpful with arranging the swimmers. =)
and sheng and andrew and every single other supporter who came. we did it!


anyway. this is the long dreary part of my blog which makes ppl drop to sleep. but i want to blog about it anyway. while i remember. you dont have to read it.

okay. day started at 4.50am, when i woke up late. dashed around the house, finally get things together, rush around, pick nic ng up, pick kah chuen up, rush to cheras. reach cheras at 5.55 am, school is still dark. wait in the canteen.
sometime past 6 - tania (with bryan/farah) comes, move swimmers to a secluded area for attendance thingy. i stayed to direct swimmers to new spot. terrorise a few ppl on the way, help some out. whoops. heh. do stretching, etc. get students into the pool for warmup.
i didnt warm up, i was getting ishika warmed up. she was so so so terrified she started crying. i didnt know what to do. i suck with kids. but she was amazingly easy to take care of. i expected little kids to be louder. and stubborn. and she did get warmed up!
next up! reporting to the marshall room etc. think : chaotic. chaotic. chaotic.
i dont remember much really, its like a big blur. oh no, this 16-year old is getting OLD and forgetful!
basically it went along like this - cheer cheer cheer. look for people. keep the swimmers from running around. look for more swimmers. stress out. cheer more. stress out. go keep swimmers waiting where they ought to be. stress out. look for swimmers. look for swimming caps. offer chocolates. talk to them a bit and let them take out their boredom on my back. (you know what, i've got my back scribbled on - i dont know what henri/siewpun/odette wrote; and my arm has ian's tiger and "HARIMAU" running down it. it's in permanent red marker.) nag them. find swimmers. arrange the relay, primaries. freak out. find swimmers. frantic. (out of a relay of 8 ppl + 1 sub, there were two of use there. TWO.) freak out. freak out. freak out. event called. enter. freak out. event out. next event. run. stress out. run to block. swim. run out. cheer. lose voice. cheer. points counted. shriek. OMG OMG OMG OMG we won! giggle. shriek. high. keep quiet. calling capts to the podium. run run run! results announced, WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yes.

in the words of elle woods - we did it!

rainy days and mondays

i'm updating! instead of starting on my ever-increasing pile of hw.
i mean. honestly. i think there should be a limit for the amount of hw we can receive daily.
let's just hope mr wong doesnt want his hw anytime soon.

i just HAD to blog. i watched the stupidest movie ever (and no, i dont mean scary movie 3. hey, that was educational - anatomy and jigglyness of the female body from a horny, presumably male perspective)
it was titled 'love on a diet'. seriously disturbing. and upsetting. i swear, if not for the hot actors.....

hee. today (well, today as of half an hour ago) was andrew's bday.
we had delumptious choc cake. yummmmmm.
it was so sinfully good
did you have a bit?
it was one of the most fattening things i've had for Ages. and it was worth it!

maybe i'm also a wee bit deprived of chocs. i've now started on a box of chocs in the fridge. there are like, 5 in there??

are you stressed about swimming gala? i am. please say you are.

it better not flood in pahang. seriously. =( please.

beach boys and bikini gals

hrm.
i got chucked into the pool.
=(
my shirt was white.
(clue : the msg said BRING swimming stuff, not WEAR swimming stuff. URGH)
and they removed my skirt.

i feel violated.
the only plus point is that almost everyone got the big splash style pool dunking too! and the half-raping.

hahah
but it was whacky fun. i love yi shen's house. amazing.
and there's a glass thingy surrounding the pool!!!!!!
maybe i'm sakai.
just a bit.

they wanted to watch porn, but tak jadi... so we watched scary movie 3!!! its obscene. silicon implants much? i mean. the lady's boobs were practically floating!! heh.

i havent watched porn yet. one day maybe.
you know what? guys talk about their assets as if referring to a WMD. crazy. (cue : weng pipes up "WEAPONS OF MASS PRODUCTION!!"

and i just have to mention. ks forgot something, and really traumatised sze. XD. i'm sorry. it HAD to be mentioned.

anyway, i'm unshowered, and its 11.30. signing off!